untitled poem 2

sigh with the world,

hoping with hope,

the light in the eyes,

drown in darkness.

watching... without emotion,

nothing inside me,

empty...

just like a statue..

the road seem far away..

light become hazy..

tired of walking...

giving in to despair...

should i stop?

or should i go on?

tired of thinking...

tired of diciding...

what should i do?

untitled poem 1

nothingness,

light seem far away,

the vision seem unclear,

the decision stay undecided

the red color of river,

flowing without hope,

waiting, hoping,

still...

unclear

waiting for nothingness,

pain come all the way,

hazy mist cover the eyes,

tear become friends

flower bloom and fall down to earth,

dead, never revive again,

spring come to end,

winter come with coldness

looking far away,

hoping for some light,

hoping for a smile,

hoping still....

wondering...

is it worth it?

Heart, Mind

heart and mind,

never agree with each other,

mind say this,

heart say that,

and who will suffer?

the body of course...

mind always logic,

heart always emotion,

confusing,

giving headache...

suffer problem coz of both...

sometimes the heart win,

sometimes the mind win,

but altogether..

nobody win at all...

coz sooner or later..

this thing will make us suffer..

a never ending pains....

Ketenangan dan kegelisahan

ketenangan yang dicari

mampukah aku temui

keresahan yang melanda

bagaimana harus ku hadapi

patutkah aku berpura

untuk mendamaikan hati yang gelisah

atau patutkah aku menjadi diriku

menghadapi dengan penuh luka parah

aku keliru..

keliru dengan diri ku sendiri...

keliru dengan persekitaran ku..

tertanya..

apa yang harus aku buat?

gelisah ini tidak berpenhujung...

tenang yang ku dapat hanya sementara..

mata yang aku pejam...

ngeri yang aku mimpi...

gelisah di hati..

mampu ku kawal..

hanya dengan mengunci diri ku

di dalam kepuraan...

tapi..

sampai bila aku begini....

sampai bila aku...

bukan aku?