DENDAM

sajak lama, terjumpa masa kemas bilik. sajak time masih baru dlam dunia puisi....

dendam,

perasaan atau tindakan?

patutkah dituruti?

wujudkah di hati?

tidak ku pasti

bila dendam bertapak,

naluri hanya dituruti

menuju ke alam kemusnahan

apakah adanya gembira

bila kita mewujudkan kesedihan?

tenangkah sanubari

bila dendam sudah tercapai?

hatiku kosong, perasaanku kontang

kenapa ini terjadi?

tidak cukupkah kebencian ini

memenuhi segenap ruang hidupku?

untitled poem 2

sigh with the world,

hoping with hope,

the light in the eyes,

drown in darkness.

watching... without emotion,

nothing inside me,

empty...

just like a statue..

the road seem far away..

light become hazy..

tired of walking...

giving in to despair...

should i stop?

or should i go on?

tired of thinking...

tired of diciding...

what should i do?

untitled poem 1

nothingness,

light seem far away,

the vision seem unclear,

the decision stay undecided

the red color of river,

flowing without hope,

waiting, hoping,

still...

unclear

waiting for nothingness,

pain come all the way,

hazy mist cover the eyes,

tear become friends

flower bloom and fall down to earth,

dead, never revive again,

spring come to end,

winter come with coldness

looking far away,

hoping for some light,

hoping for a smile,

hoping still....

wondering...

is it worth it?

Heart, Mind

heart and mind,

never agree with each other,

mind say this,

heart say that,

and who will suffer?

the body of course...

mind always logic,

heart always emotion,

confusing,

giving headache...

suffer problem coz of both...

sometimes the heart win,

sometimes the mind win,

but altogether..

nobody win at all...

coz sooner or later..

this thing will make us suffer..

a never ending pains....

Ketenangan dan kegelisahan

ketenangan yang dicari

mampukah aku temui

keresahan yang melanda

bagaimana harus ku hadapi

patutkah aku berpura

untuk mendamaikan hati yang gelisah

atau patutkah aku menjadi diriku

menghadapi dengan penuh luka parah

aku keliru..

keliru dengan diri ku sendiri...

keliru dengan persekitaran ku..

tertanya..

apa yang harus aku buat?

gelisah ini tidak berpenhujung...

tenang yang ku dapat hanya sementara..

mata yang aku pejam...

ngeri yang aku mimpi...

gelisah di hati..

mampu ku kawal..

hanya dengan mengunci diri ku

di dalam kepuraan...

tapi..

sampai bila aku begini....

sampai bila aku...

bukan aku?

Dark

the air is silent,

but not quiet,

the night sky look very dark,

cold air blowing upon my skin,

raining is coming soon

light are on in every house,

but its dark here on my floor,

silent dark, creepy perhaps,

looking from left to right,

no ones is around

silence feel in every corner

i look upon the sky again,

how i wish that moon will appear

so this place will not be so dark and creepy,

moon, please come out...

Pandangan Mata ini....

Anak mata yang bulat melihat keadaan sekeliling,

Dunia ini serba berbeza,

Bagaimana harus ditempuhi,

Dapatkah menyesuaikan diri,

atau jatuh tidak berdiri lagi,

semua itu kekuatan hati,

Pada Mu ku berserah segalanya,

Hidup ini harus diteruskan,

Biarpun hati berdarah dihiris pengkhianatan,

kekecewaan dan kesedihan,

Sesungguhnya itulah yang mengajar erti kehidupan....

sanubari..

sanubari yang merintih,

mengalir sungai duka,

berdarah tanpa henti

roda yang berputar tanpa henti

bergerak hanya ke satu arah..

membawa bersamanya besi karat

sanubari dipanah api benci

dihiris pisau khianat,

dipukul tukul penipuan

hancur berkecai tanpa kasihan

air mata darah menitis tanpa henti

minda mengharapkan pembebasaan

bunga datang dr kayangann

menghapuskan segala luka

menerbitkan senyuman

manis tidak terhingga

My Quotes..

When your LIFE seem MEANINGLESS...

Take a grip of YOURSELF,

Make something DIFFERENT for that LIFE...

you seem bored of...

If you THINK acting CRAZY or ABNORMAL

make your LIFE cheerful...

Then GO FOR IT...

If you THINK walking, go out, swimming,

doing things you wanted to do,

GO! JUST DO IT!

DONT HESITATE!

because life without FUN really SUCK!!

Just Be What You Want To Be...

Just Do What You Want To Do...

Then your life feel MEANINGFUL...

I love the way you lie- Eminem

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there's a steel knife
In my windpipe
I can't breathe
But I still fight
While I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right
It's like I'm in flight
High of a love
Drunk from the hate
It's like I'm huffin' paint
And I love it the more that I suffer
I suffocate
And right before I'm about to drown
She resuscitates me
She fucking hates me
And I love it
Wait
Where you going
I'm leaving you
No you ain't
Come back
We're running right back
Here we go again
It's so insane
Cause when it's going good
It's going great
I'm Superman
With the wind at his back
She's Lois Lane
But when it's bad
It's awful
I feel so ashamed
I snap
Who's that dude
I don't even know his name
I laid hands on her
I'll never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie, I love the way you lie

You ever love somebody so much
You can barely breathe
When you're with them
You meet
And neither one of you
Even know what hit 'em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah them chills
Used to get 'em
Now you're getting fucking sick
Of looking at 'em
You swore you've never hit 'em
Never do nothing to hurt 'em
Now you're in each other's face
Spewing venom
In Your words
When you spit 'em
You push
Pull each other's hair
Scratch, claw, bit 'em
Throw 'em down
Pin 'em
So lost in the moments
When you're in 'em
It's the rage that took over
It controls you both
So they say it's best
To go your separate ways
Guess that they don't know ya
Cause today
That was yesterday
Yesterday is over
It's a different day
Sound like broken records
Playing' over
But you promised her
Next time you'll show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave
Out the window
Guess that's why they call it window pane

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie, I love the way you lie

Now I know we said things
Did things
That we didn't mean
And we fall back
Into the same patterns
Same routine
But your temper's just as bad
As mine is
You're the same as me
But when it comes to love
You're just as blinded
Baby please come back
It wasn't you
Baby it was me
Maybe our relationship
Isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens
When a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is
I love you too much
To walk away though
Come inside
Pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity
In my voice when I talk
Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed
I'll aim my fist
At the dry wall
Next time
There will be no next time
I apologize
Even though I know it's lies
I'm tired of the games
I just want her back
I know I'm a liar
If she ever tries to fuckin' leave again
I'mma tie her to the bed
And set this house on fire

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie, I love the way you lie

Alice by Avril Lavigne

Tripping out
Spinning around
I'm underground, I fell down
I fell down

I'm freaking out
So where am I now?
Upside down
And I can't stop it now
It can't stop me now

I, I'll get by
I, I'll survive
When the world's crashing down
When I fall and hit the ground
I will turn myself around
Don't you try to stop it?
I, I won't cry

I found myself in Wonderland
Get back on my feet again
Is this real?
Is this pretended?
I'll take a stand until the end

I, I'll get by
I, I'll survive
When the world's crashing down
When I'm falling hit the ground
I'll just turn myself around
Don't you try to stop me
I won't cry
I, I'll get by
I, I'll survive
When the world's crashing down
When I fall and hit the ground
I will turn myself around
Don't you try to stop me
I, I won't cry

p.s. i like this song....

FEELING...

Feeling,

the heart, the soul,

lost within the world,

cannot be found,

lost in a mist,

feeling,

can be a cure,

can be a poison,

depends on how it behave,

the heart ache,

aching so deep it hurt,

the old wound,

open and rip apart,

by just one word,

the soul is not a soul,

lost half of it,

lost with heart,

being plunged by knife,

scarily gruesome,

mind feel disturbed,

feeling sorrow,

need help,

but who? what? can help me?

i'm in pain..

plez help me...

Sabar

SABAR

sabar itu ada hadnya,

sabar itu satu kemestian,

tapi...

sabar akan menipis,

apabila hati panas membara.

Sabar,

hanya pada yang berhak,

sabar,

ada naik dan turun,

jika tinggi,

lamalah masanya,

jika rendah,

hilanglah pertimbangan.

sabarku,

sudah menhilang...

sudah tidak berharga,

sabarku,

dibuang bagaikan sampah...

sabarku sudah tiada,

hanya amarah dan kecewa

bertakhta di hati,

apakah yang patut ku lakukan?

PuAsA

Puasa...
puasa itu satu nikmat..
puasa itu satu berkat..
tapi hanya pada orang yang sabar..

puasa...
satu penyeksaan..
satu keletihan..
tapi hanya pada orang yang tak sabar..

puasa..
menyihatkan badan...
memberi faedah...
mengawal nafsu..

puasa...
satu keberkatan....

Kenapa?

Ku tertanya-tanya..

kenapa?

kenapa dia buat begini?

ku keliru...

dia yang ku kenal...

berbeza siang dan malam...

ku geram,

dia buat begini..

dia tak suka..

tapi dia buat juga..

kenapa?

dia suka ke?

dia minat ke?

tapi dia kata dia tak suka...

huh,

lelaki...

semua sama...

tak boleh dipercayai...

cakap lain buat lain...

aku sebagai rakannya...

aku hanya mampu menggeleng....

TIREDNESS.....

Tiredness…
Why I do feel so weak?
I can’t walk right,
Can’t think right,
I even can’t study right….

What is happening to me?
Something I drink?
Something I eat?
I wonder…

Tiredness…
Draining my happiness…
Make me a ghost..
With pale dull face…

Tiredness…
Go away!
I don’t want you…
Go far away from me…
You make my life miserable…

Duniaku, Perasaanku...

tika ku rasa duniaku berputar,

aku rasakan hidup ini tidak adil,

sanubariku kuat memberontak,

mindaku semakin diracuni,

apa yg telah berlaku?

knpa aku berasa gundah?

adakah hidup ini sememangnya begini?

adakah hidup ini sememangnya ketentuan?

aku tidak mengerti,

mindaku...

hatiku...

semakin kabur

semakin gundah

semakin keliru,

yang mana betul

yang mana salah?

kulihat tiada perbezaan...

knapa?

apa yg patut ku buat,

ya tuhan..

kepada Mu ku berserah kesemuanya...

be your ownself,

dont follow others, 

be your ownself,

so you can live your live happily,

be your ownself,

dont fake it,

your life not worth it...

people keep on saying,

same thing over and over,

but still people keep on doing the same mistake,

why? why?

is the heart cannot decide?

is the mind too stupid to think,
we becomes sarcastic,

we become hypocrites.

why?

why this happening??

is it too much to ask?

is it too much to follow?

is it too much to be ourself,

then tell me,

what are the reason we are alive??

Will I be Able To Return....

tell me,

am i a good person?

i bet you will say no.

i wonder why...

is it because of that?

i know...

i already lost my way of life,

i'm once a happy and good child,

but now...

Look at me!

What is happening to me?

is this because of that thing?

that white and pure looking powder,

that thing give me so much fun,

i crave for more and more,

such a bright life this young girl have,

now she look so gloomy and weak,

no more cheerful laugh, no more pretty smile,

all that left is just a hollow body with no feeling at all,

will she be able to come back from that hell?

i'm losing my mind,

slowly, i'm losing my senses,

my memories fading,

my body shaking so much,

suddenly feeling alone,

wandering aimlessly,

hoping for some light that could lit my life back,

hoping for someone,

some that will take my hand,

and save me from this darkness....

What Is IT?

What is it?

what is it that make us change our view?

what is it that we see differently than other people?

what is it with the world that some people hate it so much?

What is it with the people, they intend to kill each other?

What is it with the politic, never have enough making their people suffered?

What is wrong with this world??

All of this is just wrong in the eye of people who look the world in other way...

feeling bored by all this stupid things....

never feel happy enough with all that happen...

wonder when all of the people will realise this?

Derita Merindu - Ahli Fiqir

Tajuk/Lirik Lagu: Derita Merindu
Artis/Penyanyi: Ahli Fiqir

(Rap)
Kau katakan cinta gunakan akal
Bila aku gunakan, kau yang menyangkal
Bagaimana nak kekal
Kau katakan cinta gunakan minda
Bila aku gunakan, kau yang tak percaya
Bagaimana nak bahagia

Maafmu tak bererti, kau mudah sesali
Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri
Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi
Menanti biar terus didustai

Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu
Tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

(Rap)
Dan aku cuba sedaya upaya
Telah ku usaha dengan sepenuh jiwa
Bagaimana hendak ku lupa
bayangan wajahmu selalu di depan mata
harum baumu masih dapat ku hidu
Bagaimana ingin aku membencimu
Jikalau setiap hari merindu
Sekiranya derita merinduimu itu sebenarnya bahagia..
Aku pilih derita..

Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

Mungkinkah esok atau lusa walau biarpun lama
Akan ku biar tiada ku tetap kan setia
Entah bila akan tiba sampai jua harimu yang sama
Esok seperti semalaman yang tak berubah

(Ulang) (2x)
Kaulah tanda tanya.. kau tiada titik noktah
Ku dibuai mimpi lena dikejut igau semula
Kaulah tanda tanya.. kau tiada titik noktah
Ku dibuai mimpi lena dikejut igau semula

(Rap)
Seandainya kau berada di depan mata
Mudah untuk aku berkata-kata
Supaya dapatku melihat seraut wajahmu
Walaupun belum tentu kau mahu bertemu
Apalagi memandangku
Setelah ku turutkan segala kemahuan kau mainkan perasaan
Begitu mudah kau ucapkan terimalah saja kenyataan..
Aku masih terkilan

Maafmu tak bererti, kau mudah sesali
Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri
Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi
Menanti biar terus didustai

Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa
Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

(Rap)
Jika kau dapat memahami hati seorang perindu
Baru kau tahu derita hatiku
Jika suatu hari nanti giliran kau merindu
Baru kau ingat derita diriku
Segala yang berlaku bukan kemahuanku
Apa gunanya bahgia
Jikalau bahagia bersamamu hanyalah untuk sementara waktu
Aku pilih derita merinduimu

Maafmu tak bererti, kau mudah sesali
Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri
Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi
Menanti biar terus didustai

Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa
Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

dreams....

When star  are hard to reach,

we thought to ourselves,

is dream also the sama with star?

then,

we think again,

nothing will be possible,

if we work hard for our dream....